IT’S MY LIFE – from Jan. 15, 2007

2006 will probably go down as my so-called life’s most memorable and eventful year. i never had this much happiness, pain, excitement, complications, happenings, fun, and stupidity since 2002.

 

for those who always thought and/or believed that i’m this guy who always does his best to do the right thing, well, forget that guy. in 2006, i discovered that all that is trash. i will do what my conscience can take and will not do what it can’t.

 

but be assured that i still value friendship, especially those who have proven to be the real ones.

 

i went to places i despised going to. i did things that i never really thought i could or ever would. i finally lived up to the repuatation of being a… all because i had to experience what it’s like to be totally hurt. couldn’t escape it, no excuses. and i wasn’t good at it, i realized.

 

but if not for that, i wouldn’t have realized a lotta things. i wouldn’t have stayed with my family. i wouldn’t have had the guts to be part of a band. i wouldn’t get me a motorcycle. i wouldn’t be able to spend my nights in places i never imagined i’d stay or even sleep.

 

bon jovi’s “it’s my life” was something i heard first in baguio while in a club with my entomsoc barkada in 2001. then it was used as the theme song for a mitsubishi adventure ad. it always made me feel that this is how i wanna live my life. “it’s now or never, coz i ain’t gonna live forever, i just wanna live while i’m alive.”

 

the bottomline is, i’m just trying to be happy with my life now. but i know what will really make me happy and content. i’m still here, waiting for that chance. but till then, i’ll enjoy my life before i sleep and after waking up…the hardest parts of my life.